meaghan · land

I noticed my left contact was ripped when I tried to put it in this morning. I'm legally blind without my contacts so I started flipping out. I called my eye doctor but there is nothing she can do without my prescription which is at Banville Optical in Salem. It's conveniently not open today of course so for the rest of the day I will try not to fall on anything sharp while making my way through this world with my eyes shut. You might be asking how I'm writing this when I'm blind... well my face is practically smushed against the screen. Nothing will stop me from my internet. Not even blindness!

If anyone on here knows me you know how much i hate walking, running, practically moving on purpose because i am very lazy and love to just chill out and eat chips. Monday I will be meeting with a personal trainer to start working out hardcore. Blame my mother. This is going to SUCK! She thinks I learn to love exercise... I just don't see how that's possible. I know I need to do this though. It's good for your mind and body and all that other crap. I'm gonna sweat and look gross and want to puke and die. I'm very dramatic... in case you haven't noticed.

Happy Thanksgiving! This year I am thankful that I made it through both of my surgeries and have lossed 43% of my excess weight, 73 pounds, at almost 4 months post-op. I am also thankful that I no longer have to rely on my g-tube and will be getting it removed on November 30th. Have a great day everyone!

i'm 21.

Dear Meaghan,
I _________ you. You have a nice _________. You make me _________.

You should _________. Someday I will _________. You + me =_________.

If I saw you now I'd _________. I want to _________ you. I

would build a _________ just for you. If I could sing you any song it

would be _________. We could _________ under the stars.

Love,
_________

(P.S. _________.)

tonight was aazing despite the fact that my card doesn't work in my door and the ra on duty refused to give me a lock out so i had to wake up jose to give me one and he was so sweet even though clearly i'm a bitch cause he was sleeping.

i need some of that night time sniffling sneezing coughing aching stuffyhead fever so you can rest and ever wake up medicine.

worked & did laundry.
still pudding.
*ugh*
i'm gonna go clean it..... i'm SOOOOOOOOO leaving a note about this.

( tmi )

i can't even put how i feel into words anymore.

my world is nothing without you
now i don't know what to do with myself

yeah.

got locked out of my room in my bathrobe for HOURS because no RA's would pick up their phone so i had to wait for jamie to unlock my door. oh and then i spilled my soda all over my only paid of clean socks. *SIGHS* i have a wicked busy day and i already just wanna crawl under my covers and sleeeeeeeeep but that's how i feel every day so whatever. oh and i decided not to date anyone until at least 2007. i need to get my mind back. thought of the moment..... maybe the reason i'm here is to figure out that i'm not supposed to be? note to self.... stop analyzing every little thing and try to have some fun again... you miss that.

before you
everything made sense
then you made me question everything
i thought i knew, believed, wanted....
and i feel in love
and you hurt me
and i hurt you
but still we get can't get out of each other's heads
because that's where we belong